July 3, 2011

His Love

I was covered up, saturated in, & full of manipulation, control, lust, pornography, selfishness, self-hatred, & much more; but God. God saw me & took me in His arms. When I asked why He saved someone like me; he simply said; because I love you.

At first I had a hard time believing that God would want to forgive me.  I struggled with receiving His awesome, wonderful love.  I tried to argue with God; why I was not any good.  I had used His Word, His Name in manipulating, controlling and deceiving people.  I had lived a double life for so long that I didn’t think He would restore me or reconcile me.  I thought God had patience, but I realize now He doesn’t.  If you have patience, that means there can be an ending to your patience, but God is love and that love has no end.  He loves us even when we go against Him and know we are doing it.  He loves us even when we don’t care if He does or not.  All of this to say, that if God did it for me then He will do it for you and those in your life that you pray for every day.  Don’t lose hope in His love.