March 12, 2011

Confused About Love

I am amazed at times how my life goes.  I know you probably feel the same about your life too.  

For most of my life I only loved people to get what I wanted.  My relationships were based on what I could get from that person.  It wasn’t like I thought about that, but it turned out to be the case now that I look back.  There are times that people knew this was the case, but they didn’t seem to mind. I guess they were getting what they wanted from me in return.  Many times what I did and how I treated people was just wrong, but I continued to do so.  Now, I have made dramatic changes in my heart and mind.  I love folk for who they are and who they can become.  I see what they can be and hopefully will be.  The thing is, now I get treated worse than I ever did when I was acting wrong.  It’s like people are confused because I have no agenda or motive for myself.  I am don’t think I am being done wrong or having pity party, but it has been somewhat confusing.  I think I am getting a handle on it now.  Unconditional love is so rare that folk don’t know what to do with it.  They don’t know how to handle it.  I just bet you know exactly what I am talking about.  Many of you are going through this same thing right now. It almost like people are more comfortable being used with agenda filled love rather than to be loved unconditionally.  What’s the solution? What’s the answer? Keep on loving unconditionally.  If people reject you it’s ok, keep on anyways.